Are you being busy or being productive?

For 2 days now, I have been trying to watch 4 different movies. Different languages, different genres and it are from different decades. I ended up not watching anything and slept off instead. Why am I so fickle-minded when I am a very simple person who watches only binge-worthy series? Yeah, I am still figuring it out. 

My life and brain kind of stopped working for some time now. I have been doing the basic work. Just to keep earning the basics. Cause I have bills to pay don't I? But none of the work towards my goals was done. Why? Cause my soul died. Not trying to be dramatic but it is the truth.

I realised that the last time I felt energetic was right before I found out that my grandma has passed away. Ever since then, I was just lost. It has been a year now. I am still lost. A lot of things have happened ever since then. Most people believed that CJ usually has everything figured out. Maybe, I was wrong the whole time. 

Today, something changed my mind. I read the quote, "Stop trying to be busy. Try to be productive instead." Being busy and being productive is definitely two different things that could make a crazy amount of difference in someone's life. Are you being busy or being productive? Have you ever checked on it? Give it a thought.